Hello 2018

Well hello 2018, it’s been well over a year since I sat down and wrote, if I’m honest it’s been that long since I fancied even looking at a blog, let alone write a post for mine. The end of 2016 and all of 2017 was a massive emotional journey for me and the reason I haven’t been on here for such a long time.

Let’s go back to 2016 when I had an epiphany, well kind of, I’d spent six years with someone who made little to no effort with my family and friends. Thus making it impossible for me to make new ones without me feeling like I was neglecting my child or that I didn’t care about our family. I felt deflated and unworthy, I felt isolated and completely alone, I wasn’t me nor was I happy. I feel rather embarrassed for allowing someone to dictate my life so drastically that I forgot who I was. I sort of got on with thingsĀ  throughout 2016 and tried to make life work and give it another chance before I make a decision that would change the lives of everyone involved. It took me an entire year to figure out what the hell I was going to do and to actually pluck up the courage to do it. November that year was the point the blur lifted, my emotional attachment to the life I was living had vanished. I saw him for who he truly was and I was 100% sure at that moment I didn’t love him. I began escaping on days he could look after bean, she enjoyed her days with him, I however did not. I had to escape for a few hours on these days and rediscover me.

January of 2017 I ended my six years with Bean’s dad, he didn’t seem all that bothered which actually made it so much easier. However it was a turbulent five months after as we continued to live together until he eventually went back home to Hungary. My life began in May of 2017, I was free of the one thing holding me back but it doesn’t mean I haven’t struggled with things. I frequently had that ‘well you made your bed, now lie in it’ mentality when things have well and truly kicked my ass. But Bean is perfect and happy, she is having a life that is filled with happiness instead of darkness.

So here we are almost at the end of day one of 2018 and I’m sat on my sofa, with my feet resting upon the lap of a man who encourages me to be myself, who makes me feel so utterly loved and content that I don’t question my happiness at all. But we can talk about Mr R another time.

Happy New Year

Speak soon

Gx

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11 Comments

  1. 2nd January 2018 / 11:41 am

    Happy New year. I hope 2018 is a much easier year for you. Sorry to hear about your relationship ending it must have been a tough time for you.

    • Georgia
      2nd January 2018 / 12:10 pm

      Thank you, it was pretty rough but it’s made me a stronger person!

  2. 2nd January 2018 / 2:33 pm

    This is so touching. It’s actually quite nice to read that not everyones lives are perfect! Often i feel like i am the only one, because everyone has such a positive appearance on social media. I’m glad you are in such a better place now. You seem really lovely & deserve it.

    • Georgia
      3rd January 2018 / 9:13 pm

      Oh you can always come back and read about how I frequently fail at life! haha!

  3. 2nd January 2018 / 6:59 pm

    So sorry to hear about your struggles love but glad you made a decision and are much happier for it, here is to an incredible 2018

  4. 2nd January 2018 / 8:44 pm

    Oh my goodness hun if you ever need to talk my virtual door is open , even if it is just to talk to a random stranger like myself. I am sorry that you were in a relationship with someone who did not appreciate you or even make the effort but I am so pleased that you had the strength to break away and do the right thing for you and Bean. Well done x

    • Georgia
      3rd January 2018 / 8:40 pm

      Thank you so much, that means a lot. I feel invincible now and no longer take anyone’s crap they throw at me. I’ve become the positive strong female role model for my bean and I’m ecstatic about that.

  5. 2nd January 2018 / 10:15 pm

    It sounds like 2018 will start off in a much better way than previous years and you will know you are appreciated and plan lots of adventures with friends and family. Hope 2018 brings you all you hope for.

  6. Nikki
    4th January 2018 / 10:03 am

    Well done for having the courage to walk away from something that was not making you happy. I am looking forward to reading more about how things are going in 2018 x

  7. 4th January 2018 / 12:30 pm

    Happy New Year to you. Do not feel embarrassed about staying in a relationship. we want things to work for all kinds of reasons, and they can be powerful ones. It sounds like you are on a happier path now though

  8. 4th January 2018 / 3:44 pm

    Welcome back to blogging. Its great that you are finally free and can restart your life with new beginnings.

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